The Current State of Mona

It's Monday night. The end of the holiday weekend. Friday was spent doing housework and sitting in the sun. Saturday was date night. Sunday I was a complete waste as I was feeling very ill. Today, I grilled burgers,brats and sweet corn for my aunt, cousin and mother, and made potato salad. Mother brought baked beans, and my aunt brought tomato salad and peach cobbler. We enjoyed a scrumptious meal, followed by a few games of Yahtzee. It was so nice to spend time entertaining family. Something I wish I could do more of.

I sent a resume and cover letter by fax to an OB/GYN office position and then located an HR Assistant position with a non-profit organization in town. I would LOVE to work for a non-profit. I could care less about the pay. It wouldn't be less than my current income, and I find helping others to be extremely rewarding. I have decided to take my resume and cover letter in personally tomorrow morning. Call me crazy, but a voice was telling me to take it in. I kept considering faxing it and the voice kept insisting. I decided to listen.

In Friday's mail, I received my letter from the Department of Human Services regarding my food assistance application. They are allowing me $10. I'm not sure what the going rate is for Ramen Noodles, but I doubt $10 will provide one month's worth. Unemployment runs out in 8 weeks. Something needs to give. Soon.

A small but beautiful surprise occurred when I was home alone after my dud date with Patrick. I had Sirius Channel 21 on and a song caught my ear. It was "You Don't Know Me" by Ben Folds and Regina Spektor. I decided it MUST be on my other MySpace page and looked up Ben. What a musical genius he is! "The Luckiest" has to be one of the most moving love songs I have ever heard, and "The Bitch Went Nutz" is just plain righteous! I shot him a few crazed emails and he wrote back!!! I'm going to a show in October!!! YES!

To summarize the Current State of Mona... I haven't given up. I'm taking life as it comes and still busting my ass to try and change my circumstances. I am putting myself out there for education, work, dating, and joy. Something inside me tells me that a new opportunity is on its way... but the black-and-white logic driven part of my brain is mildly anxious. I'm clinging to balance. Maintaining balance in all dynamics of life is the key to surviving. When I have a bad day, I try very hard to make the next a good one. I had a good day today. Let's shoot for two in a row!